Yay! Christmas is over! Not that I don't like Christmas, because I do. But I am loving being able to go to bed before midnight, and actually having time for myself to do some of the things I need to do.
I admit, I put exercise on the back burner. I still worked on my posture (its getting better) and I watched what I ate, but exercise was nill. Something to do with the working on gifts ever second that wasn't dedicated to the kids. My water consumption went down, but I already have my mug for tomorrow filled and ready to go, so I am excited to get started. It is 10:30 right now, and I am going to plan my day for tomorrow and then go to sleep.
I got a bunch of really cute shirts at Down East today, and I can't wait to wear them. They are darling, and will look even better without back fat. :)
Also, I have just finished nursing Faye. That means that my body will be losing about 10 lbs from the top. Finally. And that makes me ecstatic.
My family is doing a Biggest Loser, and so having that support is awesome. I am so excited to do this with them. But since everyone is at different places, we are going to judge it by goals maintained rather than weight lost. That way it encourages a lifestyle change, rather than unhealthy weight loss ideals.
I also am going to get back into the 12 Steps program. One step a month shouldn't be too hard, right? I know I can do it, and since I am being more careful with the budget, I will be able to afford the vegetables I am trying to make.
My goal this week is still posture, and water, but I am going to add smaller portions to it. And I will step on the scary scale tomorrow when I get up to exercise. Wish me luck!
Monday, December 27, 2010
Sunday, December 12, 2010
Reapplication
I was doing really well last week (or was it two weeks ago? I lost track of time). I only ate healthy foods, and Jeffrey has been coming home from work 2 full hours earlier, so we have been eating two full hours earlier. That makes me happy. However, we had friends over on Wednesday. I made a bean dip which I was very good at not dipping into. I also made a spinach dip which I was not so good at staying out of. I was just too darn tasty! I need to remember that nothing tastes as good as thin feels. I really need to remember that. Thursday was a bad day for one reason or another, I forget, and I got depressed Friday and Saturday... well, getting out of a junkie habit is hard to do, and falling into it is simple. Needless to say, I fell out of my determination. It was sad.
But the great thing about this life is no matter how many times you mess up, you can always start over again and try to do better. So, I am doing just that.
As I had said before, while I was pregnant with Keith, I gained 60 lbs. But I lost a good amount. I was back down to 160 before I got pregnant again. With Faye, I have not lost so much weight. Examining what I did in the past, I decided I can just copy those things. For starters, I signed up with SparkPeople. A free diet website. It tracks food eaten, drinks consumed, exercise, has lots of helpful articles, exercises etc. to follow. I also did 10 minutes of Tae Bo every day. It wasn't much, but by doing those two simple things, I was able to lose the weight. When I stopped doing those things, I stopped losing the weight.
I have not been very happy with myself. I mean, I love being me. Who wouldn't? (was that too cocky?) At the same time, I think there is a little too much of me. I have been into simplifying my life lately. I think that should include simplifying my waist as well. So, the thing I am going to work on the most this next month is my abs. I used to have awesome posture. I used to be able to hold my stomach in all the time. It was a subconscious effort. Now, I have to consciously hold it in, but most of the time just don't. I figure the difference is muscle. If my ab muscles are stronger, then it will be easier to hold the tummy in, which will also improve my posture. I used to have really good posture, too. I had babies and lost it. I want that back. But, I can't eat an elephant in one sitting, so I am going to work on things individually. More crunches.
I just read an article on midday crashes. The article said one of the best ways to combat that is to have a good morning routine. It said to wake up naturally (which is easy, I do that anyway, or the kids wake me up). Take your time letting alertness flow through your body into your limbs, and digits. Pretend you are a cat waking up. Stretch. Slowly get out of bed. Stretch. Do 5-10 minutes of exercise. Slowly turn on lights throughout the house until all the lights you see are on. Eat a good breakfast. If possible, do a fun 30 minute exercise routine. Actually, I added that last one in, but I would like to be able to do that. Also, it said to get up at the same time every time. That will help your body adjust.
This coming week that is what I will work on. I will be in bed by 10:30 every night. My bed-time routine will begin at 9:00 otherwise I wont make it. I will do the whole bathroom thing first. Then I will write in my journal (blog, whatever), do 100 crunches, 10 minutes of yoga, read my scriptures, plan for the next day, say my prayers, and then go to sleep.
I will wake up by 6:30 every morning. I am not going to do much more than work on my nightly routine right now. I know if I give myself too much to work on, I will burn out. Baby steps, right? I figure once I get the night routine down, it will be a lot easier to get the morning one figured out.
In the positive speaking role right now, I have been making a lot of progress. I have posted up around my house and on my computer the words "I weigh 160 lbs" since that is my baby goal right now. I see it often. I see that and smile, and know that it is attainable. A.so, seeing it often helps me a lot. I am going to make a sign to frame and post on the fridge door that says "nothing tastes as good as thin feels." That should help me with my emotional and boredom eating, since I sure do a lot of both.
I am trying to remember the sacredness of the body, and that it is a temple for my spirit. By remembering that, it makes me want to take better care of my self. My body does not need the toxins and extra weight I am giving it. Just like a car gets ruined if you add too much oil to it, a person gets ruined if there is too much fat and grease and oil added to them.
So, as a recap: My body is a temple. Positive words. Nightly routine. Crunches/abs. I think that is enough for me to work on for now. I am going to be brave and weigh myself again for next weeks post.
But the great thing about this life is no matter how many times you mess up, you can always start over again and try to do better. So, I am doing just that.
As I had said before, while I was pregnant with Keith, I gained 60 lbs. But I lost a good amount. I was back down to 160 before I got pregnant again. With Faye, I have not lost so much weight. Examining what I did in the past, I decided I can just copy those things. For starters, I signed up with SparkPeople. A free diet website. It tracks food eaten, drinks consumed, exercise, has lots of helpful articles, exercises etc. to follow. I also did 10 minutes of Tae Bo every day. It wasn't much, but by doing those two simple things, I was able to lose the weight. When I stopped doing those things, I stopped losing the weight.
I have not been very happy with myself. I mean, I love being me. Who wouldn't? (was that too cocky?) At the same time, I think there is a little too much of me. I have been into simplifying my life lately. I think that should include simplifying my waist as well. So, the thing I am going to work on the most this next month is my abs. I used to have awesome posture. I used to be able to hold my stomach in all the time. It was a subconscious effort. Now, I have to consciously hold it in, but most of the time just don't. I figure the difference is muscle. If my ab muscles are stronger, then it will be easier to hold the tummy in, which will also improve my posture. I used to have really good posture, too. I had babies and lost it. I want that back. But, I can't eat an elephant in one sitting, so I am going to work on things individually. More crunches.
I just read an article on midday crashes. The article said one of the best ways to combat that is to have a good morning routine. It said to wake up naturally (which is easy, I do that anyway, or the kids wake me up). Take your time letting alertness flow through your body into your limbs, and digits. Pretend you are a cat waking up. Stretch. Slowly get out of bed. Stretch. Do 5-10 minutes of exercise. Slowly turn on lights throughout the house until all the lights you see are on. Eat a good breakfast. If possible, do a fun 30 minute exercise routine. Actually, I added that last one in, but I would like to be able to do that. Also, it said to get up at the same time every time. That will help your body adjust.
This coming week that is what I will work on. I will be in bed by 10:30 every night. My bed-time routine will begin at 9:00 otherwise I wont make it. I will do the whole bathroom thing first. Then I will write in my journal (blog, whatever), do 100 crunches, 10 minutes of yoga, read my scriptures, plan for the next day, say my prayers, and then go to sleep.
I will wake up by 6:30 every morning. I am not going to do much more than work on my nightly routine right now. I know if I give myself too much to work on, I will burn out. Baby steps, right? I figure once I get the night routine down, it will be a lot easier to get the morning one figured out.
In the positive speaking role right now, I have been making a lot of progress. I have posted up around my house and on my computer the words "I weigh 160 lbs" since that is my baby goal right now. I see it often. I see that and smile, and know that it is attainable. A.so, seeing it often helps me a lot. I am going to make a sign to frame and post on the fridge door that says "nothing tastes as good as thin feels." That should help me with my emotional and boredom eating, since I sure do a lot of both.
I am trying to remember the sacredness of the body, and that it is a temple for my spirit. By remembering that, it makes me want to take better care of my self. My body does not need the toxins and extra weight I am giving it. Just like a car gets ruined if you add too much oil to it, a person gets ruined if there is too much fat and grease and oil added to them.
So, as a recap: My body is a temple. Positive words. Nightly routine. Crunches/abs. I think that is enough for me to work on for now. I am going to be brave and weigh myself again for next weeks post.
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
Skinny State of Mind
Things are finally feeling right. Finally.
I learned a long time ago, that I have to be in the right mind set to get anything done.
For example, my house is messy right now. I have laundry that needs putting away, toys that need picking up and dishes that need washing. Yet because I am in the blogging/journaling mind set, not one of those things is getting done.
I am getting some good journaling time in, though, so that is good.
When I was in HS I went into serious weight loss mode. The sad thing is I didn't really have any weight to lose, so I lost about 30 pounds and was very underweight. I blame the media and friends.
When I went to college I got back that 30 pounds and stayed right there (that was 135). A healthy weight for me. I was that weight until I got pregnant, and, like I said, I ballooned up. I have tried and tried since then to lose the weight, but although it was important to me, I could never quite get into the mindset and so I tried and failed and tried and failed.
Now, that mind set has come.
YAY!!!!
And so this isn't a chore to me now. I am drinking loads of water each day (starting yesterday). I figure I need about 87 ounces of water a day. I have had to go to the bathroom so much lately, but that is because the toxins are being cleaned out of my body. And that is good news. I have been wanting to eat healthily. For breakfast yesterday and today I had a small bowl of Kix cereal. For lunch today I had a few multi grain crackers and a large bowl of salad and avocados. For dinner I am going to make some garlic spiked broccoli and rice. I have not been snacking out of boredom or for any other reason.
I have been out shoveling the walk, which I love that it counts as good exercise. Keith has been asking to do yoga with me, so that also helps me get in gear that way. Things are finally starting to work out. I don't want sweets. Which is odd, because I have an incredible sweet tooth. I am just happy that my mindset has finally come. I have to make cookies for my visiting teaching sisters today, and I know that part will be put to the test, but again, the mind set. I want to be thin and to feel good, so it doesn't matter. I will make peanut butter cookies just to be on the safe side, though.
And now, my cleaning mindset (inspired by a baby climbing all over the computer) has kicked in.
I learned a long time ago, that I have to be in the right mind set to get anything done.
For example, my house is messy right now. I have laundry that needs putting away, toys that need picking up and dishes that need washing. Yet because I am in the blogging/journaling mind set, not one of those things is getting done.
I am getting some good journaling time in, though, so that is good.
When I was in HS I went into serious weight loss mode. The sad thing is I didn't really have any weight to lose, so I lost about 30 pounds and was very underweight. I blame the media and friends.
When I went to college I got back that 30 pounds and stayed right there (that was 135). A healthy weight for me. I was that weight until I got pregnant, and, like I said, I ballooned up. I have tried and tried since then to lose the weight, but although it was important to me, I could never quite get into the mindset and so I tried and failed and tried and failed.
Now, that mind set has come.
YAY!!!!
And so this isn't a chore to me now. I am drinking loads of water each day (starting yesterday). I figure I need about 87 ounces of water a day. I have had to go to the bathroom so much lately, but that is because the toxins are being cleaned out of my body. And that is good news. I have been wanting to eat healthily. For breakfast yesterday and today I had a small bowl of Kix cereal. For lunch today I had a few multi grain crackers and a large bowl of salad and avocados. For dinner I am going to make some garlic spiked broccoli and rice. I have not been snacking out of boredom or for any other reason.
I have been out shoveling the walk, which I love that it counts as good exercise. Keith has been asking to do yoga with me, so that also helps me get in gear that way. Things are finally starting to work out. I don't want sweets. Which is odd, because I have an incredible sweet tooth. I am just happy that my mindset has finally come. I have to make cookies for my visiting teaching sisters today, and I know that part will be put to the test, but again, the mind set. I want to be thin and to feel good, so it doesn't matter. I will make peanut butter cookies just to be on the safe side, though.
And now, my cleaning mindset (inspired by a baby climbing all over the computer) has kicked in.
Thursday, November 25, 2010
Doctor Cheese, My Nemesis!
Happy Turkey Day!
I don't worry too much about Thanksgiving and weight gain because I am not a huge fan of the food. Turkey is probably one of my least favorite meats, and I don't eat meat anyway, so that fixes a lot.
I discovered something yesterday. Faye just turned one and as such can now drink milk. I understand that the fat in whole milk is important for brain development in babies up to the age of two. Faye, however, refuses to drink the milk. Which quite honestly doesn't bother me too much. I have never like the taste of milk, and due to some recent knowledge I have acquired on the topic, I have learned that milk is actually bad for your body. Something about milk having tons of calcium, but not calcium that our bodies can use. Cow's milk has such a high acidic level that calcium is actually leached from our bones in order to digest it. And anyway, we can get just as much calcium as we need from greens. That is how cows get it in the first place, anyway.
So she refuses milk, and I am okay with it. I realized that I need to find a way to replace those fats so her brain will still have the nutrients it needs for proper development. My mother is a calorie counter nazi. Meaning, any food, she can tell you how many calories it has in it, and is very strict on how many she puts in her body. I called her yesterday to ask her what foods are rich in fats so I could give them to Faye. I explained her situation.
The first thing my mother suggested was to give her whole milk {Sometimes I wonder if she hears what I say}. I again explained that Faye refuses to drink it, and so she suggested pork. And meat. Again, I explained that we are vegetarian. Meat is not really an option. Not something I want to give to my kids. If they want some when they are older, they can have it, but I don't encourage it. I was so frustrated trying to get her to help me. I said I am going to give her lots of avocados and olives as I know they are both high in fats. She said that there is no vegetable/fruit/non animal product that is high in fat.
So I called my mother in law. She pulled out her book that has the foods listed from least fatty to most fatty, and we were able to figure out what to give my baby. Nuts (peanut butter is awesome!) and corn, and nuts again. Also, cheese, which I already knew. Cheese is one of the foods most high in fat (and yes, I know it is an animal product. I am vegetarian who doesn't like milk. Not vegan). But the point of this whole thing is I found my Achilles heel.
Cheese is my weight loss nemesis. I never realized how much cheese we eat. Really. Grilled cheese for lunch (because that is what Faye was having before she could have nuts). Cheese for a snack. Cheese is is there in some shape or form in our dinner. We eat cheese so much! So, my goal this next week is to cut down on the cheese. I am going to try having it just once a day, and then eventually once a week. I need to slowly cut back so I don't go into withdraws and gorge myself on cheesecake (my favorite form of cheese!).
Hopefully I can kick this habit soon. And then I should see some results a lot quicker.
I don't worry too much about Thanksgiving and weight gain because I am not a huge fan of the food. Turkey is probably one of my least favorite meats, and I don't eat meat anyway, so that fixes a lot.
I discovered something yesterday. Faye just turned one and as such can now drink milk. I understand that the fat in whole milk is important for brain development in babies up to the age of two. Faye, however, refuses to drink the milk. Which quite honestly doesn't bother me too much. I have never like the taste of milk, and due to some recent knowledge I have acquired on the topic, I have learned that milk is actually bad for your body. Something about milk having tons of calcium, but not calcium that our bodies can use. Cow's milk has such a high acidic level that calcium is actually leached from our bones in order to digest it. And anyway, we can get just as much calcium as we need from greens. That is how cows get it in the first place, anyway.
So she refuses milk, and I am okay with it. I realized that I need to find a way to replace those fats so her brain will still have the nutrients it needs for proper development. My mother is a calorie counter nazi. Meaning, any food, she can tell you how many calories it has in it, and is very strict on how many she puts in her body. I called her yesterday to ask her what foods are rich in fats so I could give them to Faye. I explained her situation.
The first thing my mother suggested was to give her whole milk {Sometimes I wonder if she hears what I say}. I again explained that Faye refuses to drink it, and so she suggested pork. And meat. Again, I explained that we are vegetarian. Meat is not really an option. Not something I want to give to my kids. If they want some when they are older, they can have it, but I don't encourage it. I was so frustrated trying to get her to help me. I said I am going to give her lots of avocados and olives as I know they are both high in fats. She said that there is no vegetable/fruit/non animal product that is high in fat.
So I called my mother in law. She pulled out her book that has the foods listed from least fatty to most fatty, and we were able to figure out what to give my baby. Nuts (peanut butter is awesome!) and corn, and nuts again. Also, cheese, which I already knew. Cheese is one of the foods most high in fat (and yes, I know it is an animal product. I am vegetarian who doesn't like milk. Not vegan). But the point of this whole thing is I found my Achilles heel.
Cheese is my weight loss nemesis. I never realized how much cheese we eat. Really. Grilled cheese for lunch (because that is what Faye was having before she could have nuts). Cheese for a snack. Cheese is is there in some shape or form in our dinner. We eat cheese so much! So, my goal this next week is to cut down on the cheese. I am going to try having it just once a day, and then eventually once a week. I need to slowly cut back so I don't go into withdraws and gorge myself on cheesecake (my favorite form of cheese!).
Hopefully I can kick this habit soon. And then I should see some results a lot quicker.
Monday, November 22, 2010
Off The Treadmill.
My goodness, it has been a while. I see to have fallen off the treadmill. Or bandwagon, or whatever you want to call it. Not that I wanted to, but we have had so many birthdays, and cold weather it is just hard to lay off the sweets. Oh, and I may have a little bit of Julia Child in me. I love to cook with butter. It just makes everything taste better. I am going to have to go back to coconut oil. That way the flavor is still there, but it is a whole lot healthier. Genius! Since I haven't done a whole lot, I don't have a whole lot to write about. So, hopefully I can keep up on this this time.
Sunday, October 31, 2010
On Being Fubsy
A few days ago I learned the perfect word. It describes me perfectly. It means squat and chubby.
My whole life I have been relatively thin. Never model thin, but thin enough. Ironicly, I was never happy with my body. After I got married, I immediately got pregnant and gained 60 lbs. I blame it on my place of work. The smells there made me so sick, and I was told the more you eat the less sick you will feel. Horrible advice for me, but I tried to follow it. And so, gained 60 lbs.
I have since been trying to rid myself of the unwanted weight. No such luck yet. I lost all but 20 of it before I got pregnant again. That time I only gained 40, but put that on top of the 20 I was still carrying around... back to the 60 extra.
I have been tampering in the ways of weight loss for a while. And slowly I have been making progress.
But today, I got on the scale. I had gained 7 pounds from the little I had lost. With disgust, I decided to begin anew. I am going to begin anew. And so, here I am on my quest to feel from being fubsy.
I made a goal to lose 7 pounds before Thanksgiving, at least seven more before Christmas, and all in all, I hope to get back down to 135 (the Wii's recommended weight for my height and age... also, my HS weight). I have three and a half weeks. I know I can do it. So, today I begin my quest at 176 pounds. *gasp* Yes, I did just advertise my weight.
As my friend Lourie from Metabolism Blues (who inspired me to be so honest and candid), I will be posting only once a week. This way I wont feel so overwhelmed with trying to keep a second blog going. Also, any progress will seem bigger. That is always a good thing, right?
And so, I begin my journey. With many hopes, ideas and anticipations on the whole thing. Wish me luck!
My whole life I have been relatively thin. Never model thin, but thin enough. Ironicly, I was never happy with my body. After I got married, I immediately got pregnant and gained 60 lbs. I blame it on my place of work. The smells there made me so sick, and I was told the more you eat the less sick you will feel. Horrible advice for me, but I tried to follow it. And so, gained 60 lbs.
I have since been trying to rid myself of the unwanted weight. No such luck yet. I lost all but 20 of it before I got pregnant again. That time I only gained 40, but put that on top of the 20 I was still carrying around... back to the 60 extra.
I have been tampering in the ways of weight loss for a while. And slowly I have been making progress.
But today, I got on the scale. I had gained 7 pounds from the little I had lost. With disgust, I decided to begin anew. I am going to begin anew. And so, here I am on my quest to feel from being fubsy.
I made a goal to lose 7 pounds before Thanksgiving, at least seven more before Christmas, and all in all, I hope to get back down to 135 (the Wii's recommended weight for my height and age... also, my HS weight). I have three and a half weeks. I know I can do it. So, today I begin my quest at 176 pounds. *gasp* Yes, I did just advertise my weight.
As my friend Lourie from Metabolism Blues (who inspired me to be so honest and candid), I will be posting only once a week. This way I wont feel so overwhelmed with trying to keep a second blog going. Also, any progress will seem bigger. That is always a good thing, right?
And so, I begin my journey. With many hopes, ideas and anticipations on the whole thing. Wish me luck!
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